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Geez. I'd rather be a friendless loser than to bear anymore of this facade of mine. I mean I'm just sick and tired of pretending that I like that person and go talk to him/her. Seriously, mind your own business. TwT People can just be annoying as hell, and yes I speak as one of the humani race.

So what's up with me? Now I feel friends are drifting off from me. Truth be told, I am scared though I really don't mind losing a few but I just can't afford to lose people whom I trusted though trust in this too-good-to-be-true world is just an idiocy. People whom I shared a thing or two. I don't mind losing those people whom I talk to once, twice or maybe as often as I can remember but it's just one of those pretends. Gash, Anne is a pretentious alien. A freak.

A resolution. I'd rather be a friendless loser who doesn't have anyone than herself than to be with people too full of themselves. :)

Kaya pala naka hide ang wall at tagged photos mo Destiny Movers MrHack, 'DAD'. Ok lang naman samin eh, tinago mo pa. Pero sabagay, mas maganda ng ganyan. Mas lalo naming nalalamang uso gaguhan sa pamilya. Or kami lang talaga nag-isip na pamilya tayo. Err, wala akong karapatan mag ganto eh kung tutuusin, kaso di naman kaya masyado na tayong naglolokohan? Maisip mo sana Dad yung sinabi ko sayo. Isipin mo. Lalong magulo pag sakin pa galing. Thanks for the memories though yabangan nalang tayo hanggang sa huli. :*

You're not worth it. :| You're not OHANA.

I am a person without a talent. :|

Or rather I used to. I mean when I was young I know how to paint, to dance *gross*, to sing properly, to play piano/organ, and if I remember correctly I used to act. :| Though I am not proud reminiscing those times gives me goosebumps, except for the part that I can paint. :P

Err, my point is everybody have their own talents. I am an exception. Makes me wonder if I am normal. Not that I'll be proud if I am.

I am freakin' lazy to edit. Anyway.

~ I am not a judgmental person. I just state facts from what I observed. Sana, mali ako sa kutob ko. SANA. I don't wanna doubt another friend. Importante mga kaibigan ko sakin, I don't want to loose them or hurt them in any means. Kaya I'd rather keep those stuff inside me, pero minsan talaga, sobra na. :) And I tend to post random stuff here. Now, pinabasa ko na siya kay Jono. I don't really know and fuckin' care kung pano siya magrereact. Pero most probably, reactions are against me, I don't mind that. There's a lot of me to hate. Di ka maubusan. Now, I am beginning to show what's on my mind. How heartless and cruel I am. Backstabbing isn't a way of life, but I tend to hold on to that. Deceiving a person is just always better than showing them everything. I am beginning to sound like him. Rather I am slightly like him. We think alike that's why we're friends, I guess. Pero, gusto ko na itigil tong kalokohan ko. I wish the same thing for him. *bow.

Lawl. I am kinda enjoying this myself. XD Ohoho~ Pero Sis, I am not gonna let your conscience eat youuuu. =w= I didn't mean that in a negative way, I guess. Bihira nalang naman mangyari yun ngayon eh. Before I really don't have lots of people to rely on during those times. You were the only one whom I talk to about it. Super naaliw ako na naiiyak everytime na naaalala ko yun, namimiss kita lalo Sis. OwO About that it's sakey. Now I learned to keep my blogs to people important and special to me nalang. :">

* (cozy) :DD I can't open Plurk. =w= Di ko makuha URL nung cozy. :))) Natawa ako ng sobra nung narealize kong pwede pala. XDD (girlykiss) :DD < May ganyan ba? XD

I don't know what to feel, to be happy for him or to be annoyed or something. I mean, nothing's wrong with having new friends pero pag ako kinutuban iba. I know him. Hindi naghahanap ng tao kung hindi niya kailangan.

For an instance, si Mafu. Hindi sila magiging friends ni Mafu ngayon kung hindi dahil sa desire niya na magkaroon ng panakip butas. I mean gamit para sa mag-asawa. Na makita nilang masaya siya. As far sa I can remember, yan yung original purpose kaya kinaibigan si Mafu. Isa na namang pawn niya.

Ngayon, pati si Jono. WOW. I mean iisipin ng iba gusto ko kaibigan ko lang si Jono, like WTF naman. Pero alam mo yun, sa isang maikling pag-uusap, nagawa niyang manipulahin yung utak niya, kumampi sakanya.

Jono nababasa mo toh, pero sana walang lalabas dito. Kung anong nasa blog ko, sa blog ko lang. At kung ano yung mga sinabi ko SAYO, sayo lang. As of now ikaw pinakapinagkakatiwalaan kong tao, wag mo sana sirain tiwala ko.

Hindi ako HATER. Kaibigan ko siya kahit gano siya ka selfish, kagago. Pero sana lang naman, tama na tong gaguhan. I know may motibo siya, kinwento niya lahat eh. May balak siya, ayoko ng alamin pa.

I'm sick and tired of his games. I've been a pawn, once, though I am not directly involved. My existence is essential to his plans. Like what another friend said.

Masakit mang isipin, hindi sumanggi sa isipan ko yun pero nararamdaman ko. Nagpapakabulag ako kasi kaibigan ko siya eh at nung mga panahong yung nasa kanya yng tiwala ko. Ayaw ko na mangyaro sa iba yan.

Sabi ko sa kaibigan ko, I was never his pawn. If I was, nag gagamitan lang kami. Pero kung tutuusin, lugi ako sa bargain kung ganyan eh. Kasiyahan, pamatay ng boredom at testing lang ng logical reasoning nahahasa sakin eh. Hindi importante. Pero nevertheless, pinanindigan ko yan.

Hay sa kawalanghiyaan lang napapadpad tong blog ko. Ewan ko na kung ano na ang purpose, medyo lumihis na ata, oh well. :) Better than nothing.

*kalmado na ako.

It's not like that actually, I mean I was only remembering what you said about the family thing. I just missed you so much. You're the only one who replaced my family whenever I started loathing them. It's just, you cheered me up so much that I can't afford you seeing another rant from me hating them. You're one of the very few whom I hold I treasure dearly. And you are not forcing me to hide something, I am kind forcing myself. No need to be sorry. It's just that I really want to change old habits of mine just posting those anger thingies here. I just don't want second year issues to pop back and happen again. I mean, I realized it when you told me to make a new one. Possibilities flashing in front of my face. I just don't wanna go back to that kind of life. I mean they saw blogger as root of evil those times. I mean I just can't afford to have them mock our outlet again.

I dunno how to post Plurk emoticons here. =w= Poor. (cozy)(cozy)

I am panicking right now. Seriously, ayoko ng nawawalan ako ng kausap pag ganto kalagayan. Alam mo yung feeling na everytime na mawawala sila, forever na silang mawawala sayo. Hindi saglitan lang. Ang dami kong nasa isip ngayon. I wanna give up my typing speed. :| Kasi nasasabayan niya yung random kong pag-iisip. Nakakainis, tipong type nalang ako ng type ng pumapasok sa isip ko. Naiinis na ako. Kanina pa eh. Napadaldal ako ng medyo mahaba. Naiinis ako. Naiiyak na ko. Ayaw ko ng ganto. Kaya nga ba ayaw ko maexpose masyado sa ibang tao eh. Ang hirap. Tae ayoko na. T^T Sa totoo lang nung sinabi ni Jono na pinapatulog na siya panic unang pumasok sa isip ko. As of bago siya mag online siya yung heroin ko or whatever drug na nagssuppress ng kabaliwan ko. Kasi siya yung taong nakakausap ko ng matino as in everything nasasabi ko sakanya kaya kampante ako kausap siya. Sobrang ayaw ko pa siya patulugin kaso kailangan eh. Hindi naman ako masamang nilalang na sabihing wag sundin nagpapatulog sayo eh. asdgfhjkl; Ano na pinagsasasasabi ko. << Di ko na binilang mali kung mali. Naiinis ako, naiiyak na naman. Hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko. Ayaw ko matulog kasi natatakot ako baka di na ko magising. Yes, kung normal state ako hindi ako takot dyan, pabor pa nga ako eh. Kaso dahil nga under paranoia na naman ako nagccontradict yung thoughts ko. Sabayan mo pa ng multi personality disorder ko. Aghh~ Sa SMPPAW todo paramdam akong happy ako kasi masaya naman talaga dun, sa chat kanina kay Jono super panic na hindi ko na malaman tapos sa personal sa bahay tunganga, tulala ako sa monitor ko at hinahayaan kong mag type ni dirediretso daliri ko. Wala pa akong tigil. Kung meron mabn nothing major. Para lang magbura at msg type ng iba. Pero para sa pag-iisip ng ilalagay, wala pa. Napaka continuous ng ideas na lumalabas sa utak ko. Napaka spontaneous niya. Dirediretso wala man lang pahintulot na pwede na lumabas. Grabe napakainvoluntary na ng movement ng fingers ko. Grabe grabe. Tapos may isang topic p-a naglilinger sa utak ko. Kung magpapaka acgive pa ba ako sa SMPPAW. Kasi parang ayaw naman ng ibang admins sakin. Si Sora-nii lang tsaka si Chii-chan at si Ash lang naman nattuwa sa mga pinaggagagagawa ko thought di pa ako sure. Ngayon nawalan na ako ng galang kasi tinanggal ko yung honorifics ko. Ano ba yan. Anne umayos ka na. =w= Kasi feeling ko na mali yung ginawa kong page kanina. Nasanay kasi ako sa ganun eh. Ganun magpagames sa ILA sa page na kinalakihan ko sabay ganun sila. Choosy masyado, nag iinterfere. Ok lang sana na mambabastos sila, magsside comments pero yung eepal nalang bigla, gagawa ng sariling wall post sa kawalan, nakakagago. Sabayan pa ni Tara na feeling ko si Rima kanina gaguhan masyado. Ayaw ko pa naman ding ako yung tinatarantado at ginagago. I get to do all those pero ayaw kong ginagawa sakin. Shiz. Ansakit na ng fingers ko, yung pointer lang naman eh. Kasi yung lang naman yung nagalaw. Grabe ayoko na ng ganto. Sana pala nagpagupit narin ako ng kuko, kasi ansakit mag type gamit kuko. Yung muscles ko sa fingers sa kanan gusto ko na iflex ng iflex kasi sobrang di na talaga mapakali daliri ko. Ayaw ko na mag-off na nga lang muna ako bago ko pa maibato tong laptop eh. At hihiga na ko at ssbkang kumalma bago ko pa masaktan ng tuluyan ung sarili ko gaya ng ginagwa ko ngayon. Yes, kinakalmot ko na yung sarili ko. Masakit pero hindi ko mapigilan. Tae ayaw ko na talaga. Next time talaga na aatakihin ako nito di na ko magpapatulog. Kung gantong oras na naman siy adumating. Wala na akong patutulgin hanggang di ako kumakalma. Gaaaah.

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:(((

Gomen ne, I know if ever you're reading this Sis, I know you'd prolly feel sad.

Anyway. They are killing me. I am really hoping that they don't reach this blog or else I'll move into a new one. Jono said : They gave me life. Yes, I know. But what they're doing now is the opposite. Taking my life and everything away from me. Does it really make them feel happy seeing me like that? Why don't they just slit my throat off to finish this idiocy.

You may think that I am so melodramatic or I am over-reacting. But I know if you're on place you'll feel the same. Eternal torture seems fun when I am the one doing all those torturing.

HAHAHA. Shet. :3 Slash the title. :P Nabasa ko lang sa tagboard ko kanina. :)

jono: joke lng, ui bumalik ka, wala akong bubullihin pagwala ka

15 May 11, 01:24 PM

jono: katuloy: yet humble human being, why is there no admiration for my angelic and beautiful voice? xDDD

15 May 11, 01:23 PM

jono: again, speaking as a talented, smart, handsome, and just to cut it short, almost-perfect, yet humble

Opo, siya po si Jono. Ang hum~~bog~~ este humble ko palang kaibigan. :3 Friends ba tayo? Lagi mo lang naman ako binubully eh. INAMIN MO PA. Pero no joke, isa siya sa mga pinakaclose kong kaibigan na nameet sa ILA. Kaya kung wala siya, matagal na kong baliw na kausap ang sarili at patay dahil sa boredom. :)

Si Jono, masyadong gifted. XD Gwapo na daw, matalino, and sobrang talented at sobrang ganda pa ng boses. :3 Uuyy promise nung kumakanta ka sa TinyChat nakangiti ako dito. HAHAHA. Lalo nung One and Only You pero libang yung My Heart. Naiyak ako nun eh. Kaya nung sinabayan kita piyok galore ako. HAHAHA.

Pero sa kasamaang palad Jono, kahit ikaw pa mamilit sakin, wala akong choice. :) Siguro makakapag online naman ako. Isang oras isang araw. :)) Lalo na kapag may review ako kinabukasan. Bawal na yung 3-4 oras lang tulog ko. :DD Alam kong mamimiss mo ko pag wala na ko, wag mo masyado ipahalata. HAHA. Loljk. :3 Basta gusto ko kakantahan mo ko with the matching gitara pa na kinaiinggitan ko ng lubos. :&&

Maybe this is gonna be my last blog post for now. My dad banned me from using the internet from Monday. :)

I am gonna miss blogging, so much. Well, I think I can visit from time to time. *tummy starting to hurt. dam you medicine you should have worked by now.*

So, this is just another blog of mine containing non-sense but the difference is, I'm saying goodbye.

** Tag-lish ho.

"Kain na kayo lunch, wag papagutom."

How ironic, I keep on worrying about others but I haven't thought of myself. Ako laging gutom. Daw. I keep on eating brunch, and dinner only. Papatayin na ako ng sakit ng tiyan ko. :/ Last night super wala ako sa mood because of that. Skipping meals + lots of acid on my stomach = definitely ulcer. =w= Papakamatay ako pag nangyari yan. Mean not allowed to drink soft drinks anymore. :( Mom said I shouldn't eat spicy food. (

asdfghjkl; Ayoko na mag kwento. :3

** Tagalog post.

Una, naiyak ko *refer to my previous post.*

Pangalawa, dahil kay Pio. Pero hopefully, ok na. :)

Pangatlo, kay Daddy. Bawal na daw mag net. Saya. :)

Hopefully hindi pa ito ang last TinyChat ko, meron pa bukas at sa Sunday.

Wala na akong kaligayahan. Wala na nga akongg cellphone, wala pang internet. Thanks for killing me. For taking away my life. Thank you so much. Internet nalang kaligayahan ko ipinagdadamot niyo pa? Wala na nga kayo dito para paligayahin kami tapos yung tanging nagpapasaya sakin ipagbabawal niyo pa? Thank you. Natutuwa talaga ako. :)

Sana sa last few days ko sa TinyChat kantahan nila ako. Sana makapasok na si Eiren para kumpleto. Si Pio, si Jono at si Eiren kakanta. :) Sana.

Well, I tried to blog on Tumblr, but the thing is I can't. Maybe because there are a lot of eyes on me there, while here people who read my post are mostly strangers (no offense) and chosen people. Nah, srlsy there are only 2 people whom I know reads this blog of mine.

I mean I just don't feel safe there. When I opened the 'Add a Text Post' on my dashboard my fingers just don't move the same as here on my blogger. And my mind is like auto-shut off. How cool is that?

asdfghjkl;

Random thoughts~

** Tagalog post. :">

Story about my crush-life. Hahaha. BV. So here goes nothing. :3

Kahapon, nakita ko si crush. HAHA, Ang ganda ng intro ko. :3 So anyway, wala lang masaya lang ako. LOL. Kasi away-bati kami nun eh, namiss ko lang makipag gaguhan sakanya. Hoho. ~ Waley bonding galore tapos kinantahan niya ko. LOL. Actually kami kasi marami kami nun. *more than 1 is many.* Ayoko na sabihin kung ilan. :> Basta natuwa talaga ako, sabog yung boses eh. Jk~ Pero crush ko talaga boses nun. Boses yung nauna bago siya. HAHAHA. asdfghjkl;

Basta, masaya ako. Yun lang. :)

asdfghjkl; Seriously. :| Natatawa nalang ako. >w< Gaya-gaya. Pero seriously, gusto niyo daw kasi katulad nung akin, simple eh tinatamad ako masyado para mag change ng graphics. BV. Ayan, temporary gaya-gaya mode siya. >:3

"You are my light. You are my home. You are my sanctuary.

You are my peace. You give me hope. You are my sanctuary."

I miss Callalily ~ I miss my old Sanctuary. I have a new one right now, though. My TinyChat profile. I wanna stay there because there, I can be alone. Knowing that I am still on TinyChat makes me feel secure and far away from boredom. If you read some posts on my other blog, you'll know what my Sanctuary is. I miss it, I miss them.

"I'm watching you break down. Hate me all you want, I'll be okay."

This song reminds me of a friend whom I loathe secretly. Stupid him. But there's someone who knows whom I dedicated this song. The lyrics and the title itself.

"Tell me what you want to hear. Something that we're like those years.

I'm sick of all the insincere. So I'm gonna give all my secrets away."

Seriously, who's not sick of them?! Insincere people, I mean. I guess we are ALL like that but there are people who are the worst.

Lyrics post to be continued. :)

Today was fun. They sang songs. :"> I'm kinda happy. :3 HAHAHA. And I let them hear me voice. :O >w< asdfghjkl; Ang my cough too. :)) Lawl. Actually, that was the very reason I don't wanna turn mu mic on, 'coz I cough a lot. >w< Anyway, why is TinyChat fun? :3

They sang. :> Seriously, these guys have good voices. I didn't hear Jono's voice. Sayang.
Eiren sang Gifts and Curses, Breakeven and The Man Who Can't Be Move. :3 HAHAHA. Comments from other TC-ers. XD ; Hot, sexy, gwapo voice. Lawl. :3
Pio sand again! :> Hahaha. As I've said, crush ko talaga boses niya. :"> Lawl. He sang E.T for me too. :3 Hoho. ~
There are a lot of new TC-ers a while ago. :3

I dun wanna sleep yet but TC is getting boring. :( BV BV BV. They're gone, Sean's gone and Pio too. I didn't even heard him say bye. Now I am left with Saph and his stupid game. I am booored that's why I am blogging. >:D And this blog is broad casted on TC. Lawl~ Idfc. They'll read this anyway. I wanna listen to Papa Jack. But the time. >w< His programs end at 2. :| BAKA!

I wanna freakin' die. I'm gonna leave TC after posting this. Bsht. I am so bored and feeling cold and I don't wanna sleep yet. I plan to be sleepy later. :/ I think it's gonna be Science and English Day tomorrow so I plan to sleep all the way through. Wee~

I think I wanna sleep here instead of sleeping in the other room. asdfghjkl; They have the aircon ON. :/ And here I am only using electric fan but man I am sure feeling cold. My fingers and toes are freeeeeeezing. Brr. And I cough a lot. =w=

Btw, my throats itchy. I wanna scratch the itch away using my damn long finger nails but I can't. Shimata. O.O I forgot to cut and clean them. :(( Dirty finger nails~ Lawl. I think am gonna go to the parlor on Saturday and have my hair cut and nails trimmed. I have lots of plans. But I really have no plans of sleeping yet.

I just remembered. I don't have money anymore. :( I am on budget day tomorrow. I already finished up my whole session allowance plus 700 pesos extra cash. Wasteful spending. I only have I think it's around 120-150 pesos more. I am so gonna kill myself if I am wrong. And I think I still have 30 pesos from Janet. Please I hope I do remember correctly. :/

Ahh. Tomorrow for the review I am using my Death Note bag. ♥ Since it's white day tomorrow. :| Shaks. I don't have any white t-shirt anymore. Guess I'll stick with my Newton shirt. Gaah. What happened to me. Last era-fashion. Damn damn. Money for new clothes please. :( I am so gonna ask Dad to be my some new ones. :(

Right now I am still waiting for them to vacate TC. Because I want to be the last to leave. But sadly, they don't to. YET. Only increased the number. Damn these guys. Bye 3 I am saying bye bye already. I am so freakin' bored. Bahala sila. Magssoundtrip ako. <3 Or I'll just turn my mic of. Lalala.~

I just remembered. Jono said he's gonna post a new blog today. He didn't. Still 2 posts. 1 from me and another 1 for him. It's still a draft though. Hmn. Kabute siya. He's like online and offline specially on TC a while ago. I think I am partly at fault? Inasar ko kasi? Idfhac.

Bahala na si Spiderman. I'll have my leave now.

- Anne ♥ Cookie Monster

I have review classes, again. And I am sleeping VERY early. How cool is that?

I forgot to do my homeworks. :/ I guess I have to do it now. Kyaa. >w< I'm dead bored. Jaa.~

Nakakainis. :| I don't have net connection last night idfk what's wrong with Globe again. :( I slept early too. :/ Geez. Maybe Globe wants me too sleep because I only had 3-4 hours of sleep yesterday but idfc. :(

I don't want to sleep early later. I'll just let myself be wasted tomorrow. Hoho. ~ Speaking of; I am so proud of myself. :"> I got a 28 out of 36 yesterday. Quiz in Bio. Seems like I just miss Sir Bio so much and all of our lessons are coming back. XD Lawl. And I dreamt of him last night. .___. Weird, ikr. HAHAHA. Oh and 28's the highest. :3 I hope I can do better. And I want to ace Math quizzes to. English just makes me puke. :/ Srsly, so damn hard. :( English illiterate here! :3

I miss playing the keyboard. I think all of those things I learned from piano lessons were wasted in vain. I don't know how to play anymore and I forgot how to play Canon anymore. The piece I have't perfected yet and played for about 5 sessions. HAHAHA. Stuupid. And I want to play my sheet musics here. Specially Sakura Kiss. :">

Why do I always feel lazy most especially when eating during mornings? =.= I want to eat but I can't because I am lazy to do so and I am not in the mood. LOL. Ulcer abot ko nito. >w<

I just read Jono's post on my tagboard. I didn't know you were still visiting my page. LOL. Yes, ikaw na mas sweet. :P Anyway, did you post something on yours? It says two posts but the only one there was the me-stealing-your-first post. o.O

Wrenzo did't listen to Papa Jack last night. He says he didn't hear anything. LOL. Baka. =.= Ako, natulugan ko. XDD Stupid commercials. Why do they have to play songs which are making others sleepy. XDD

I am so bored and yet I don't want to do anything. I hope someone's there on TinyChat. I'll visit after posting this. XDD

Mom got jealous of me TC-ing with others. And I promised her that me and Saph are gonna TC her sometime soon. BV. I hope it happens. :3

I'll end my stupidity here. :)

Yes, I am signing out early. BV. It's so damn cold and I hope it won't rain on us later. I am sleepy. I slept around 4 am. And I woke up by 6 and 8. Every two hours. Stupid body clock. HAHAHA. I guess I'll have to survive. I'll sleep tomorrow. >:)

Hohoho. I just did Jono's blog. Loser. :3 Loljk~ Mapilit kasi ako. And I even added myself as an admin of his blog. LOL. And as a payment for naming my blog, I named his.

Cookiemonstuurr.

HAHAHA. BV BV BV. And titles are the same too. I don't have the time to think of anything right now. Guess I'll change it later. XD

Oh well, I am signing off. I need rest or I won't be able to survive MSA Reviews. Might as well sleep that review. =w= Jaa~ :**

Yesterday was a BLAST. Maybe not going to MCC was a blessing in disguise. You really have plans within plans Papa God. ♥ Yesterday was one of those days that I won't forget. :") TC guys made me smile. Mastery, Recca-nii, Kuya Dah, Yvonne nee-chan, Carlhen-nee, Alexander, Julien-nii, Pio-kun *:3*, Ma'am Romy, Joshua and last but not the least, the Bully.

Magtatagalog na ako, kundi niyo maintindihan, wala na akong pakielam sainyo. LOL. Bleeh.

Basta kanina my day started awful. Ayoko na mag kwento, ma-BV lang ako lalo. Kaya naman ako naaliw kasi nagpaka trying-hard si Master na mag-isip ng gagawin ko. HAHAHA. Natuwa ako dun super. Tapos kasabay nung kadramahan ko, kausap ko sina Yvonne nee-chan, Carlhen-nee, Alexander at Julien-nii nun. Sila yung unang nagpangiti sakin ngayong araw na toh. :")

Susnod yung mga taga TinyChat. Ewan ko, pero grabe kahit na bore out ako ng konti dun natawa ako dun. HAHA. Kilala na ako ni Ma'am Romy. :3 Super tuloy tuloy na ako sa TC simula hapon. XDD Ang dami kong nalaman at nakausap at nakilala sa TC. Plus napakita ko sakanila si Skipper at si Pete *yung stuffed toy ko.*

Pero eto talaga pinakanagpasaya saakin ngayon.

Ang daming bumati sa wall ko. :)) Natatawa na nga lang ako eh. XDD Pero super thankful ako kahit napipilitan nalang sila bumati, nabati pa rin. XD
Bumati siya/sila sakin. With matching name pa. HAHAHAHA. Natuwa ako kasi ako unang bumati sakanya kahapon. :"] Kileg. :))
Nakausap ko ulit si YB-sama. ♥ Yehey. ~ Super na-miss ko siyang kausap. :3 Tapos kamustahan, tapos yung sa wall post niya sa ILA about dun sa 999,999 people. HAHAHAHA. Dabest yun eh! Dino era at Mars. LOL.
Birthday bash 'kuno' sa ILA. HAHAHA. Binati kasi ako ni Zero-nii kanina dun sa pag welcome back namin sakanya. Tapos nung nalaman ni YB-sama, nag wall post siya nakatag ako na Happy Birthday. Grabe nahihiya ako nun. >w< Pero ok lang dabest.
Kumanta si PIO KANINA! \m/

Kahit labag sa kalooban ko. Si Jono. *vomits. LOL.* Pero promise, ngiti ako nun. XD Nagulat ako sabi niya, itatag niya daw ako sa post sa ILA. Akala ko JOKE yun. Tapos kinutuban ako. Eh naka CAM ako dun sa TC edi super ewan, ambilis ko sa touch pad. :)) Tapos nakita ko nga. :/ Tinag nga ako. Ganun ba ako ka special at twice ako mentioned sa page para sa birthday ko? LOLJK. Pero nahiya talaga ako. >w<

Tapos nag wall post na siya ng una. Yung tipong happy birthday blahblah lang. May palate late lang alam. XD Edi nag thank you nalang ako. Di pa rin ako makaget over dun sa isa eh. HAHAHA. 4 posts. XDD *kahit ngayon ngiti parin dun sa 4 post na yun eh. :"3*

Tapos ako naman ay nagulat nalang ako nag post na naman. Unang line, akala mo matino yung sasabihin, yun pala hindi. HAHAHA. Natats ako kahit alam kong hindi makatotohanan. XDD Kung siya daw si Papa God bibigyan niya daw ako ng talent. HAHAHAHAHA. Hay nako sana nga. 8| Kasi childhood dream ko talaga maging archi at ako mag dedesign ng bahay ko. Eh sa kasamaang palad wala akong talent sa drawing. POAHAHAHA. And the rest follows. *insert super kasinungalingan + kahanginan then humble sa huli.* HAHAHA. Siya gagawa ng dream house ko. HAHAHAHA. Saya lang eh. XD Read it for the nth time, never failed to make me laugh. XD

Sa dulo. P.S masyado bang sweet? xD << Dito talaga ako napa-LOL. Nasabihan na naman akong baliw ng lola ko. XDD Ikaw na sweet. :) :P

Pero super ngiti at tawa ako habang binabasa ko yan. HAHAHAHA. BV BV BV BV. Take note. NAKA WEB CAM AKO SA TINYCHAT. :))) Buti na nga lang madilim eh. :3 HAHAHA.

AKO NA BANGAG. NAALALA KO NA NAMAN KUNG PANO BANGGITIN NI YB-SAMA NAME KO SA TINYCHAT. :'3 NAKAAKINLAB NA BOSES AT TAWA. HAHAHA. NABABANGAG NA AKO. NAKITA KO NA SI SAPH FOR THE FIRST TIME SA TC. SI RALPH DIN. NADISCOVER KONG 15 LANG. KUMANTA SI PIO NG YOUR GUARDIAN ANGEL. NAALIW AKO KASI ANG GANDA NG BOSES NIYA. HAHAHA. BANGAG NA NAMAN AKO~

Sa review nalang ako matutulog. 5 hours nalang tulog ko eh. XD

Kaya ayaw ko ng walang plano eh. Biglang ayawan sa uli. Naiiyak na naman ako. Mga puta. :| Ayoko na kayo kasama. Stupid. What did I expect, lagi namang ganyan eh. Friends I met online are way better than you guys. Ang sama na naman ng loob ko sainyo, sobra na. Last minute change of plans, stupid. Kahit hindi ko talaga birthday ngayon, SOBRANG nagtatampo ako sainyo. Leche. :/ Don't you dare talk to me again. Hinding-hindi na ako sasama sainyo ng feel niyo rin. Bwiset. Pag ako hindi sasama, nagtatampo kayo, sabay ganyan. Ano toh gaguhan?

Wrong post in the wrong blog. Strike #1. :|

Goosh. A while ago, it was raining hard. I was in Molino Elementary School for our Summer Camp for YFC. I just visited. And there was someone who accidentally slipped and bumped her head into the floor. The floors were tiled and it was wet, obviously, she'll slip.

We were cramped inside the prayer room for the full worship and Kuya Nikko entered. He asked if I can look after the participants on the second floor, I agreed because I can't breathe properly with all the people there. Labs asked me if I can do it and told me that I WON'T ALLOW ANYONE TO GO OUT. Since she's the boss, I followed her instruction.

I didn't allow anyone to step out of their rooms. And then there was those girls, those two annoying bitches. Gaash. I was just so pissed. Even Ate Kim and Ate Angelica and Ate Czarina thinks the same way. FC much ako. XD Pero we shared the same thought. Period. I was just so mad a while ago. Thankfully, I still am in sense that time that I didn't do something to her.

Anne = camp visitor/servant. ROLE MODEL. =w= Gash. asdfghjkl;

HAHAHAHA. Seriously, reading it for the second time made me LOL. :)) I mean Jono's post. LOL. Sweet? I don't find it sweet though. :) HAHAHA. Natatawa na naman ako. Ayoko na magdagdag pa. XDD I'll just annoy myself. Loljk~ ^^v

Yaay. Ohayouu. >w< So why is my Saturday morning hell.

My head huuurts. Idfk why. I woke up damn early 'coz my siblings kept shouting and shouting. Annoying. I wanna kick 'em out of our house just so I can sleep more. :((
My unli expired already. >w< LOL. Pero it was supposed to be expired by 10pm. Extended for about2 hours or so. LOL.
Someone stupid texted me around 1am a while ago. I woke because of the light. >w< Didn't reply to texts earlier and now trying to wake me up. Heck no. I was sleepy as hell that time 'coz I lack sleep the night before. I slept around 12-1am because of him too. Baka. =w=
Now I am hungry but I am not in the mood to eat. So what the heck is wrong with me anyway? =w=
And Joshua's looking at my pictures in FB. Heck. :| It's okay if he's doing that but at least he shouldn't have told me. Daaaamn. I hate it when people look at my photos. Someone would say, why upload it then? It's for my families eyes. Stfu 'kay?
Tummy hurts. >w< I drank iced tea. SHIT. :/ I forgot that I haven't eaten anything yet. :((

So much for mornings. :/ And now I have decided not to attend YFC today. I mean I am not gonna go to our camp. :( Save me all the trouble. They aren't even giving replies to the text message I sent yesterday. Mean. :|

Ettou, I just wanted a school for myself, I guess. Because I think Sistarr's the one who told me that most f my batchmates are going to Mapua and I loathe my batchmates. >w< Lawlkidds~ I mean if there's gonna be a lot of us there, I am not gonna meet new friends. Aww. That's why I wanted to go to PUP. I just saw in some magazine, an info about the model, SAME COURSE AS ME. :) So I just wanted to go there instead. That's gonna be my worst case scenario. LOL. :3 My priority's still UP 'coz my Mom wanted me to go there. :/ What happened if I passed, I don't want to go to UP. >w< Family connections. xD My tita's studying there. Same course as me. LOL. Funneh. I just blogged something blah.

Sis : Thanks for the post. I read it late though. ♥ Hamichusomatsis. :**

Margarette Nicole Noceda Manicdao. Sistarr. The person whom made me change. I mean, she's one of the reasons for me to change for the better. ♥

Before, I thought of her as my kapangalan because of Margarette. xD And I thought that she's someone who's existence can never be connected to mine. *watta term. :))* But then I thought wrong. >:) I first met her on Plurk. ♥ There we started to talk to each other and we even established our own family tree. And when we crossed each other in the corridor, I just gave her a faint smile. A sign of recognition. I am sooooo bad. :3 But the truth is, I am too shy to approach you before. xD So we continued talking on Plurk. We called each other sistarrs. ♥.♥ Then we became close. She became the sister that I always wanted. She became my only family whn I needed one. But it was only this year that I had the courage to talk to her in person PROPERLY and not just giving her smiles whenever we see each other. I invited her during our fiesta celebration last January 16. :) Our convos during prom practices, our pictures. xD LOL. I had so much fun Sis. :3

You changed me for the better, yes. You helped me with a lots of things. You told me to make a new blog because the one before was full of hate-post. Now I am doing my best to make you feel happy. I never thought I can make someone feel happy. :") And I just like what I promised you the last time, I won't leave you for some stupid reasons. Iloveyousomuchsistarr. :3

I just wasted another 6 hours of my life for nothing, or so I thought it was nothing. I want to spend my time productively. I mean time management is what I definitely need and yet I can't seem to do that. How hard can that be?! I guess, starting later when my unlitext expires, I won't use my sister's phone anymore. I'd finish reading my book Deception Point and do my homeworks for MSA Review. My May supposed to be jam-packed but I can't seem to manage my free time. I don't want to sit idly and stare at empty space like I usually do.

Rants of a dude who doesn't know how important time is.

Twice. I saw people with Cookie Monster shirts, twice. And the fact that I am wearing a Sesame Street t-shirt myself. What's with that? :3 What's with cookie monster? :') And whenever I try to say Cookie Monster, I tend to blurt Cookies and Cream. HAHAHA. What the heck is wrong with me? Adik sa cookies? xDD

A post for the bully. Since I mention your name a lot here in my blog and in my recent note.

The Bully. He's Jose Noel Fortaleza Casuyon, if I remembered correctly, Jono for short.

Ever since I met him, this year, everything he does is annoying me. >:) I am making you look evil and I am enjoying it. LOL. :& He teases me a lot, he makes fun of me, make me feel stupid which is partly true and he pisses me a lot. He's a nagger, he bosses me a lot. Mareklamo siya. He's TOO full of himself. Kidds~ But honestly, he's the only person who made me cry, person who made me LOL because of something so NON-SENSE and the only person who made me stay up 'til 3. *Stuupid.* He's one of those people who gave me load. :)) *even though utang yun. Kuripot.* One of those people who I asked to make his own blog. But he haven't made one yet. And one of the very few people who made me smile for real. And he's the one who thought of my blog URL, as stated in my first blog post.

Wag makapal ang muka. :)) Napilitan lang ako mag blog ng ganto. Joke. :) Pero I blog about people once in a blue moon, be honored. :P I'll end this stupid post now. Nasusuka ako sa mga sinasabi ko. xDD >w<

My birthday's gonna be soon. :3 Lawlkidds. ~ I want everybody to know that my birthday's on May, not January. I mean people who know me personally are the ones who know that. And then again, plans spoiled. There's SOMEONE who asked my when it is. I mean he's forcing some answers out of me. Baka. =w= Damn you Jono. >w< Loser loser bully. :|

Ohayouu. ~ =w= Another review day. Sucks. I don't want to worn myself out. Oh, and I just thought of something stupig again. I'm gonna plan for another gala. Either 7 or 8 for the Metro Comic Con in SM Megamall. Excited. :') And 8 is gonna be my birthday. :3 Lawl. ~ But I told someone that it isn't true already. =w= /wrist. I hope I have enough money for that and for the SM Manila trip I am planning. In the k-pop event for the iDate something. Gaah. Ate Yzaa's planning to go and I want to go as well. My problem is, the usual, money and I don't have anyone to go with me yet. Life sucks.

Imma stop blogging first. Have to take a bath and prepare 'coz I want to reach the review center early. I don't wanna sit in front anymore. =w=

- haymichulaykrezie

Just blogged to say good night and sweet dreams. :** Lawl~ This is the first time that I'm gonna follow my curfew. HAHAHA. I'm off. See you in Dreamland. ~

I am supposed to be sleeping because I'm so tired. =w= But I can't seem to log out and turn off this computer. :') I miss someone. Try guessing who. POAHAHA. Naman. :3 Landeeey. =w= Basta, hope everything turns out well. Kyaaa. ~ I give up. I'll stop typing. I'll be back for another one though. LOL. :**

I just realized that I blogged a lot for the past few hours~ Lol. So, what do I do when I'm bored.

I blog.
I doodle.
I sleep.
I eat.
I watch TV/movies/anime.
I read books/mangas.
I sit/lie down and stare in an empty space.
Walk even though I have no particular place to go to.
I clean my glasses.
I organize my stuff. *PC. >:)*
I tease my siblings. I usually make them fight.
I tend to imagine weird and unnecessary stuff.

And lots more. Just wanted to make a bullet post for this new blog. ♥ Lawl. :3

So, I had my essay done by an expert. I am so sorry, it's cheating. =w= But I really am desperate right now, thought are overwhelming me and I can't think straight.

And about the essay. I was so damn shocked and amazed when I finished reading it. Seriously, I can't believe it came from the person who wants to tear the world apart. Loljk~ But hey, this is just one of those things that I can't believe about him. :) Anyway, I really liked it. I mean I haven't really thought deeper on that topic but everything that he said was true. :O I was so dumbfounded. It felt weird. Guilt is killing me again. But still it won't work. The worst part about it is the last one. What I am going to do, to change it. It felt so wrong saying all those lies. I mean I can't really do all that. Even though it's just labeled 'simple', I can't. I can try but I won't guarantee any good result.

As much as I want to, I can't share it. That essay is mine alone. :3 I am damn selfish. Ikr.

I just had the weirdest dream a while ago. =w= He we're talking at the phone and he's teasing me like hell. What the, and my sister even busted in and she grabbed the phone from me and looked at me with an evil. Sh looks stupid. LOL.

Then again, heat woke me up and I wasn't abke to continue my dream and I forgot what ut's supposed to be aside from what I have given above.

I haven't any decent meal yesterday, none that I remember. Maybe that's why I am so damn hungry right now and Neo-sama gets to hear every rant I have to tell. Hahaha. Nakakahiya. LOL.

I had a Crispy Chicken Fillet and Green Apple Float for BRUNCH. That was around 11-12 nn.
I had one bowl of lettuce, not necessarily it's full for dinner. I ate at around 8-8:30pm.

So what the hell is with my eating habits recently. =w= I'm going to die at this state. Damn. Foooood. =w= I'm so gonna eat a lot when I wake up later.

I'll try to sleep, no I HAVE to sleep or else I'll be worse by morning. I am going to sleep now, I guess. Jaa~

Kyaa. >w< Globe failed me for the nth time already. :(( All text expired already. Shimata. And sister doesn't keep at least a peso load for spare. Nooo~ How am I gonna tire myself out inside the room without using net? >w< Supposed to text myself and Jono if ever he's still awake. :|

Random trivia : During this time I used to send myself messages so that my eyes'll get tired. >w<

I'm off. >w< I'm so fuckin' hungry. That's why I went out; to hunt for some food. I found a half-finished doughnut. :/ I'm still hungry. :((

It's like asdfghjkl; years since Jono told me he's gonna make he's own blog to. Inggitero. :P Anyway, just like I thought, he doesn't know how to. :') Mehehehe. When evilness strikes. Made me LOL again for the nth time. :)) I'm gonna do all these tutorials? Nah.

I wonder how I did my blog before. And how am I able to create one without anybody teaching me. Computer genius, in born. This isn't the first time that I thought of that though. Always. I'm good in this kind of stuff. ♥

He sure is taking his time. =w= I'm gonna log off nao~ Just gonna ask for his link tomorrow and while I'm in it try to reconstruct this page of mine. Links, new cbox, fonts and colors if possible. Gaah. My head's spinning.

Good mornights~ Meme tight. Sweetest dreams. :**

- haymichulaykrazie

Kyaa. =w= I am gonna miss my other blog. Lawl. Anyway. First post for my new blog page. ♥

hamichulaykreyzie

Weird name. Guess the person who gave this name is weird too. ~ :3 Lawlkidds. But hey, second time that I asked my blog URL from other people. First was from Sistarr and this one's from the weird dude. Ah. His name's Jono, btw. And he bullies me a lot. =w=

I'm so tired. =w= My vision's getting white. Guess I'll have to edit my page tomorrow. I am in no mood to look at those HTML and CSS stuff. Codes spinning on my head. I can't understand them anymore. So much for being a code-master. Oh, I'll start with the simple stuff first. Just the template then I'll just adjust it tomorrow since I have the day all to myself. Or rather later. =w= Dead tired, my braincells are tired too.

Guess I'll have to end this post first. I'll try to blog a longer one next time. Jaa~ :**

- haymichulaykrazie. :))