For the past couple of weeks, I have not attended 2 sessions of my ENV20 class 'cause I am always 30-50 minutes late already at sobrang nakakahiya pumasok ng late, lalo na kung gano'n na ako ka-late. Downside of my hiya is that I don't know what are things I am supposed to do, I haven't submitted my 1x1 picture yet which is required to be past last Thursday, and I don't know if we're going to have a quiz tomorrow. And since I am uncertain of the quiz, and I haven't been to any of her discussions, I have to study the 207 page pdf file she uploaded in our Yahoo! Group. Nakakatamad, I swear, but I have to. :(

Kaya I really am pushing myself to wake up and leave the house early tomorrow, at hindi na tatamad-tamamad umalis 'cause I can't afford to fail this subject, or any of my subjects. Malapit na nga akong bumingo sa Calculus ko eh. Last Monday, I haven't attended our class kaya nawala sa isip ko, quiz na pala ng Wednesday, tapos hindi ako nakapag-aral tapos hindi na naman ako nakapasok ngayon. Saya ko lang, 'di ba?

Alam ko namang hindi dapat eh. Hindi ko nga lang magawang sundin 'yung tinuturo ko sa sarili ko, at hindi ko alam kung bakit. Nakakasawa at nakakapagod na.

As usual, emote na naman ako. Nakakatawa nga lang isipin na sa personal, ang saya-saya ko samantalang sa blog posts ko, nuknukan ko ng emo. #emoheartszxxx

It has been years, months, and days,
Everything wasn't as it used to be.
I've tried my hardest to keep myself sane
Whenever thoughts of you,
Appeared out of the blue.

Sleepless nights, and erratic heartbeats;
Clouded mind, and mixed feelings.
All these I've experienced,
When thinking about what would happen,
If I finally get to see you,
After years, months, and days.

So... I am having troubles with my Math subject right now which is Integral Calculus. I mean, integrating is quite easy, but the application part of the topic just sucks. I can't understand anything since we started discussing the applications, and that was since last week! Or probably even two weeks ago. And what's worse, the topics since day one are related. You're gonna use previous lessons as the discussion progress. I know, I know. It's just to sad, and I can't even think about it. I really am wondering how am I going to pass this subject with the remaining two-three weeks left for this term. I really am praying for the 'Christmas tres' that some professors give during every second term of the year, or the Christmas season. *creys*

Do pray for me, okay? xx

I have forgotten about my Blogspot blogs (lol) 'cause of Tumblr. I've been blogging there since... well since I've stopped blogging here. Looking back at the last post I did, well, kadiri siya. Hahaha! Idk what pushed me to publish that thing, perhaps because I've got nothing to tell you that time.

It's been over a year since I last used this, and I think, (lol I really do) that I was better at writing and pouring my thoughts and heart our before. I dunno what changed, but yeah. My thoughts aren't coherent anymore. Well, kahit naman pala dati hindi, pero it has worsen. Ewan, bahala na.

One thing, you might ask why I went back here. I was blogging on my Tumblr blog just a while ago, and remembered and started to miss things here. Being in college sure is fun. I get to experience tons of shit, meet new kinds of people, but I miss my old friends, my high school friends. Since college started, I haven't been in contact with any of my high school friends except for Czar who I talk to through chat and text almost every day. I mean, I am not that clingy type of a person (weh) but there are just times na I can't help but remember. Anyway, my college friends are fun to be with din no! They're the craziest people I met, in line with my Pascal friends, of course. And the good thing is, I get to be a hundred percent me, when I am around them. I get to curse and bully them with no harm done because they do the same thing to me to. Hahaha. Though theirs is worse. =))

And speaking of stalking, I am back reading my friend's blog posts. Hahaha! I am reading old blog posts from people with blogs linked at the clickies part of my blog. Nakakatuwa lang.

Don't mind me babbling about random things, like what I always do.

I hope that I'd remember to blog here, again. Blogspot's still is my home.

Kadiri lang eh. Hahaha. Wee. Pero may something sa kilili ko. =)) Nung day before ng bivouac pa 'to eh. Pinakita ko kay Mommy, siya yung nagsabi na nagnana nga. So ako naman, okay. LOL. Pero one time nakita ko may lumalabas, yeaaah. Napagtripan ko, pinipisil ko para lumabas na nga ng tuluyan. Hahaha! Eww. Pero nun, okay na, hindi ko na napapansin.

Grabe, after 20 minutes, ang saya ko kaagad. Ganun na ba talaga ako kababaw?